Well for three weeks I have been silent. I have not posted something that has been foremost in my mind for this time because I didn't know what to write without a rambling of sadness or struggle.
I am no longer the Young Women's president and it is just hard! I have been with these girls for close to 6 years.
I don't feel any urge to run over to the young women's room each Sunday to peek in on them or anything. On Wednesday evenings when I know there is an activity happening I am enjoying my time at home. I feel perfectly calm with Laurie Arnell as their new leader. I don't think they can't live or thrive without me. I don't even want to go back. I knew in February that my time was done. So why so hard?
I miss them... collectively and as individuals. I miss their sound and their sweetness. I miss the energy and light that they exude. I miss the singing... their perfect angel voices in the simplest of hymns or the happy birthday song on the 3rd Sunday of each month. I miss the "Wins for the Week" report that left me smiling-always smiling. I miss their strength and goodness.
There is something that has disappeared from my life that is hard to replace. It can't be replaced.
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