Today I did a hard thing.
and yes I know I can do hard things. I've posted about it and even bragged about my tackling of hard things... "guffaw"
But today I say " Blah, blah blah" to all those other things. I have discovered I am a baby!
Today in my honest and real post I say,
"WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA, sob, choke, heave, whaaaaaaaaaaaaa, WHAAAAAAAA!"
I am dehydrated, red-nosed, puffy-eyed, sobbing and sloppy. I have quit wiping my eyes and don't even care if my nose is running.
Today I watched my son walk down a long hall in the airport with full knowledge that I will not see him for two years. I willingly watched this happen.
I want to rescind my declarations of being able to do hard things. Cause in my present state I am just a sad, blubbering mess.
Let me have this real moment.
I understand
"It gets better" and "It will go by fast"
and I believe those sentiments
BUT today I want to cry cause I love my son and I will miss him terribly.
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